15 June 2013

Mercy through Vulnerability



Homily for the Eleventh Sunday in Ordinary Time
16 June 2013

        My brothers and sisters, our readings today confront us with something so powerful, yet so simple, that we have a hard time living it out in our own lives. This, of course, is the notion of “mercy”. Our God IS a God of mercy. A few days ago, Pope Francis reminded us of this when he said, “If we show our inner wounds, our sins, [God] always forgives us.”

        But therein lies the difficulty for us: We choose, on some level, to keep our sins, our wounds, hidden. And we keep them hidden from God, from others . . . we even keep those wounds hidden from our very self! We don’t want anyone to know how broken we are. To do so in our society would show how “un-American”, if you will, we really are, because the pioneering spirit, that attitude of “there’s nothing I can’t do” reveals the façade that our lives really are.

        The woman in today’s Gospel reveals something to us that is difficult for us as Twenty-first Century Americans to remember and live out: we must become vulnerable in our lives to truly experience the mercy of God. We need to push our pride, our ego, our selfishness aside to truly experience the effect that God has in our lives. That vulnerability, that openness to the workings of God is the exact model the sorrowful woman in the Gospel is presenting to us. She knew that she could not undo her sinful actions, but she could atone for them; she could take personal responsibility for them.

        Saint Augustine of Hippo reminds us that “God created us without us; but He did not will to save us without us.” The Catechism of the Catholic Church goes on to teach us that “to receive [God’s] mercy, we must admit our faults” (CCC 1847). Our faults are our wounds. In fact, the word “vulnerability” comes from the Latin vulnus or vulneris, meaning “wound”. The more that we are able to show these wounds, the more open we will become to receiving the mercy of God. The more we become vulnerable, the stronger we become in the power of Christ. Saint Paul summarized this perfectly when he told the Galatians, “No longer I, but Christ lives in me.”

        This is not to say that we wear our hearts on our sleeves. Rather, this is the opportunity we have to respond to the Lord’s challenge, “If you show Me yours, I’ll show you Mine,” for He wants us to reveal to Him our woundedness, our vulnerabilities, because it is only through opening our wounds to Christ that we come to recognize how much deeper and greater are His wounds and His vulnerability, because His love is that much greater and deeper. And it is from those wounds – especially His pierced and Sacred Heart – does the gift of mercy gush forth. It is that mercy which allows us to live in Christ, and for Christ to live in us.

        Father Tom Acklin, a Benedictine monk and one of my seminary professors, once taught me that to understand what it is to experience God’s mercy, we must desire to know Christ and come to know that “the desire to share in His Passion is already the union with Him we are seeking” (The Passion of the Lamb, p. 8). This is just another way to say what Saint Paul said: “I have been crucified with Christ.” It is in this union with Christ, when we present ourselves at our most vulnerable state before the Cross, that we experience the fullness of God’s mercy. Whether she knew it or not, that’s what the woman was doing in our Gospel; that’s what King David was doing in our First Reading.

        Father Acklin also taught me that “we must become vulnerable in the vulnerability of [Christ’s] Passion. If we wish to receive Him and adore Him in the abiding fruit of His love and His Passion in the Eucharist, where the infinite Son of God lets Himself be exposed and gives Himself with unlimited vulnerability under the appearances of bread and wine, we must ourselves become vulnerable and live the passion of our vulnerability in the vulnerability of His Passion. This is how all things will be made new, how every tear will be wiped away” (The Passion of the Lamb, p. 10).

        God avails His mercy to us at all times. We, however, need to FREELY CHOOSE to accept that great gift. We cannot do so while we remain an island amongst ourselves. We need to let go of the past! We need to admit to God, others, AND OURSELVES that we are an imperfect person who loves imperfectly, and that it is only through the grace of God that we can accept His great gift of mercy so that we may freely give it away. We become vulnerable before God, others, and ourselves so that we may fully experience the tender compassion of our God.

        How, then, do we seek God’s mercy? How, then, do we learn to become vulnerable? A few ways:

1.  Frequent reception of the Sacraments, not just the Eucharist, but also frequent reception and practice of the Sacrament of Confession;

2.  Practicing mercy towards those who have wronged us or done us harm;

3.  Opening our lives, our joys and pains, our celebrations and struggles, and placing them before the Lord in daily prayer;

4.  Becoming that messenger of mercy towards God, others, and ourselves in our thoughts, words, and actions; and

5.  Knowing and believing that we are a flawed creature of the Flawless Creator, and we need – and need to desire! – His gracious gift of mercy all the days of our life.

        Our God wants nothing more than for us to be in His Presence – both in this life and in the next. His mercy will be given to us when we can move ourselves, our pride, our ego out of the way, freely choosing to become vulnerable before Him; placing before the Cross our passion united to His.

        Blessed Pope John XXIII encourages us with these words: “Every soul which presents itself to the Lord for the last judgment has reason to fear. But the Lord’s mercy is infinitely greater than our human weakness and covers it all in His light and peace” (Letter to his nephew Battista, 13 December 1951).

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